Birthday Plot Twist

While I wait for “The End” to arrive, here are three lessons I’m carrying with me into this new year of life…

The Good in Goodbye

That’s what my therapist calls it—a temporary state of nervousness or worry that shows up in specific situations. For me? It feels more like a spiritual free fall.

Stewardship—Not Selfishness

Stepping away, even for a few hours, can feel like we’re leaving something unattended or worse, letting someone down.

Change, Balance, Encouragement, Growth, Maturity, Mindfulness, Mental Health, Obedience, Rest, Self-Care, Spiritual Health, WisdomKolanda DouglasJuly 31, 2025Comment

You can have it all!

There are some days I’m a better wife than mom, or vice versa. Other days, ministry zaps so much out of me that I need time to recharge to be wife and mom later.

Which side of the cross are you on?

…the ministry of reconciliation doesn’t wait until we’ve got it all figured out. It meets us mid-conversation, in our questions, in our seeking.

Change, Encouragement, Growth, Ministry, Miracles, Purpose, Self-Care, Spiritual Health, Trusting GodKolanda DouglasApril 24, 2025Comment

Jezebel’s Prey

And though I have no reason to feel icky as the person who suffered the “violent” behavior, the biggest sentiment I feel after admitting that is: shame.

Growth, Mental Health, Wisdom, Anxiety, Obedience, Mindfulness, Fear, Spiritual Health, Encouragement, MaturityKolanda DouglasMarch 27, 2025Comment

Happy New Year?

Instead of focusing on the terrible things happening in the world, I’m choosing to focus on how the terrible things demonstrate God’s sovereignty and power.

Gratitude, Mental Health, Peace, Anxiety, Mindfulness, Trusting God, Encouragement, Suffering, Spiritual HealthKolanda DouglasFebruary 27, 2025Comment

Spiritual Regression

This self-induced defense mechanism of spiritual regression wreaks so much havoc on your life as you attempt to protect yourself from anxious thoughts or feelings, and try to assure yourself that you’re psychologically safe.

Ministry, Mental Health, Wisdom, Anxiety, Self-Care, Mindfulness, Encouragement, Spiritual HealthKolanda DouglasMay 30, 2024Comment

Spiritual Fragility

I was fully tuned into the sermon until the Pastor said: “Some of us are too fragile for God’s glory…We think being “chosen” or “called” is equivalent to receiving special privileges.”

Change, Money, Maturity, Growth, Fear, Encouragement, Wisdom, Trusting God, Spiritual Health, Peace, ObedienceKolanda DouglasApril 25, 2024Comment

Something’s Happening

For example, whenever there is a transition and/or shift happening in my life, it’s usually accompanied by other transitions and/or shifts.

Change, Encouragement, Mindfulness, Obedience, Peace, Spiritual Health, Suffering, Trusting God, WarKolanda DouglasFebruary 29, 2024Comment

It takes what it takes!

It felt like I’d won the war, but lost the battle. The only way I can describe how I felt is like the ending of the movie 300. Although the Spartans won, nothing was ever the same because they all died on the battlefield.

Encouragement, Growth, Maturity, Mindfulness, Ministry, Purpose, Spiritual Health, Spirtuality, Suffering, Trusting God, WisdomKolanda DouglasJanuary 25, 2024Comment

Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself

This year, several experiences triggered memories and feelings held by the little girl in me that I thought the adult me had suppressed years ago.

Growth, Ministry, Trusting God, Mindfulness, Spiritual Health, MaturityKolanda DouglasDecember 28, 2023 Comment

Level Up

That day, the evolution of my ministry stopped being plans inside the Notepad app on my phone and became a reality.

Ministry, Growth, Obedience, Encouragement, Spiritual Health, MaturityKolanda DouglasOctober 26, 2023 Comment

A Place to Die

A piece of me died this month. And it's kind of ironic considering that September marked another year of life, health and strength for me.

Change, Mindfulness, Obedience, Purpose, Spiritual Health, Maturity, GrowthKolanda DouglasSeptember 28, 2023 Comment

Chile, rest!

While watching the women in my family taught me perseverance, it didn’t teach me how to rest.

Encouragement, Goals, Peace, Rest, Self-Care, Spiritual Health, WisdomKolanda DouglasMay 31, 2023Comment

Open Wounds

As I discussed the situation with family and friends over the next few days, I discovered an open wound that I’ve unknowingly been carrying since 5th grade.

Change, Trusting God, Encouragement, Spiritual Health, WisdomKolanda DouglasApril 30, 2023 Comments

The Inner-Me

Because I always finish what I start, admitting defeat was very difficult. But it’s better to surrender, retreat, and try again, than to get beat up and still lose the fight.

Change, Encouragement, Self-Care, Spiritual HealthKolanda DouglasFebruary 23, 2023Comment

New Year, Same Season

So, for the first few days of January, I started looking for a word. Every powerful thing I heard, watched or read, I tried to make it my word for the year.

Encouragement, Change, Spiritual Health, Spirtuality, Trusting GodKolanda DouglasJanuary 26, 2023Comment