The Good in Goodbye

Situational anxiety.

That’s what my therapist calls it—a temporary state of nervousness or worry that shows up in specific situations. For me? It feels more like a spiritual free fall.

At the end of June, my family made one of the hardest decisions we’ve ever faced: leaving our church. We’ve learned to obey quickly and, if needed, let our understanding catch up. Thankfully, because we moved in God’s timing, we left in good standing—our integrity and witness still intact.

So where’s the anxiety coming from?

Part of it is simply the reality that leaving is hard. The other part is what I believe will be produced from this transition. The last time God led us out of a ministry, He walked me through a Holy Spirit–guided detox from religion. Out of that season came the Dive Deeper in Scripture Course and Workbook, The Religious Detox , and the ScriptHer Notes Bible Study Journal.

Now, I find myself at another crossroads—knowing something new is about to be birthed but feeling nervous about the unknown of who I’ll become and what will be created on the other side.

To keep moving forward, I’m making space to feel my emotions, journal more often, and lean into therapy. And I’m reminding myself: if I trust God when He says “Go,” I must also trust Him when He says “Leave.”

Because obedience is better than sacrifice, God is already allowing me to discover the good in this goodbye. I feel freer. Brighter. Bolder than ever.

So if you’re joining me for A Day at The Well on October 18, consider this your notice: there’s no telling how God will show up. All I know is, if you come empty, you’ll leave full. Enter at your own risk.